After absolutely crushing the last two months, I had all but forgotten what it felt like to lose. Sure, I’d lose individual hands, games, sometimes even sessions — but at the end of each day the account balance kept growing. Normally I cash out each time I’m a few thousand dollars above my starting bankroll, but due to the cashout rules (one e-check for $2,500 per 24 hours) I often had to wait to wait and let the money pile up. Yeah, life was rough.
Fellow hyper grinder and newest Vancouver resident Live@Pompeii warned me to not get used to it, as the variance can just as easily take a turn in the other direction. And it did.
We’re 2/3 of the way through June and I’m still not profitable before rakeback. It’s much closer now than it was a few days ago as I’m only $600 away from “the black.” Recently I chatted with a player who told me he only enjoys the game when he wins money, thankfully I don’t feel the same way or this would be the worst June of my life. I wouldn’t say that losing has been “fun” but initially I found it to be a refreshing change of pace. Woah, I wonder how far I can run under EV this month.
Answer? Pretty far.
I’m not too bothered by it. Yet. If the trend continues the frustration will likely build up, but so far I haven’t broken any mice or sacrificed one to the poker gods in hopes of changing my luck. And with rakeback I’m still on pace for a five figure month. That’s more than enough to pay my rent, clothe myself, and eat three square meals a day. Sometimes four.